In my life this week…
Organising
One of the little things I
really enjoy about being at college is being able to organise myself. I’m a bit
of a organisation fiend when it comes to studying, and this week I’ve been
getting all my folders and paperwork sorted out. I’ve bought a couple of new
folders, so I have one for each subject and have spent an afternoon punching
holes in papers and popping in dividers. It just seems to make me feel so much
calmer once it’s done and my head feels a bit less messy when I know everything
is in it’s place. I’m up-to-date on homework and have actually had time to see
a friend this weekend. I’m sure this calm feeling won’t last, so I’m making the
most of it while I can!
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DVD day
Like I said above, this
weekend I actually had some time to catch up with a friend. It was much needed
for both of us, as we’ve both started new things this September and are
extremely tired. We didn’t really feel up to going out anywhere or doing
anything too energetic, so instead, we decided to spend the afternoon watching
DVDs and doing some knitting. It was really lovely to have something to focus
on for a few hours and to be able to spend some time with a friend, as I’ve
been feeling pretty lonely recently.
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Things are tough
I try not to be too down in
my blog posts, because although I feel it a lot of the time, I don’t want to
project it on to other people and leave them feeling bad after reading my
posts. But these last few weeks, things have been incredibly tough and I wanted
to be honest about how I’m feeling at the moment. My mood has been incredibly
low and I’m really struggling with my eating disorder. I’ve tried speaking to
my nurse and asking for an appointment with my psychiatrist, but apparently she’s
too busy at the moment. The reality is that I’m too fat to qualify for help
with an eating disorder and not important enough to get any help with my
depression. It makes me feel pretty worthless to be honest, and to make matters
worse I seem to be losing people I thought were friends at every opportunity. I
have always tried my best to be there for other people when they’ve needed
someone, and find it incredibly hurtful when people can’t do the same for me. I
honestly don’t know how things are going to improve at the moment, so I will
apologise in advance if my posting is a little more sporadic, while I try to
get through this difficult time.
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What has grabbed your attention this
week? I love hearing about people’s new discoveries and you may end up sharing
something that makes it onto my list next week!
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