The last week has been fairly busy, so I’m
feeling quite wiped out at the moment. There have been good times and not so
good times, so I’ve just been trying to get through one day at a time. It’s
been super hot, which has made things a bit of a struggle. I love the sunshine
and I don’t mind it being warm, but there have been a few days when it’s really
just been too hot. Still, I guess we shouldn’t moan, as we’ll only be
complaining in a month or so when it’s cold and rainy!
Last Sunday I didn’t wake up until around 11am,
which means I slept for around 11 hours, so I must have been really wiped out
after the blogger event on Saturday! I had a pretty quiet morning sorting out
my medications for the week ahead and doing a bit of blogging. I sat out in the
garden to drink my Ensure at lunchtime and listened to Ellie Goulding and
Adele, which was nice. My brother and sister-in-law (David and Emma) came over
in the afternoon and showed us all of their wedding photos, as they’d been sent
the link for the proof copies. There are so many beautiful ones; I don’t know
how they’re going to choose a few for their album! I then popped over the road
to see my friend Sarah, who was visiting her parents for the day. We had a good
chat, which was lovely. My Grandma was over, so in the evening we had a family
dinner together.
This month’s Crown and Glory Glitterati subscription box is pretty awesome. Just look at that light-up hairpiece! It
would be perfect for a festival (if only I was going to one!)
I woke up fairly early on Monday and went to
have my hair coloured at the hairdressers so it’s nice for the wedding. I came
home and rested for a bit, as I was still feeling pretty wiped out after
Saturday. I ordered a couple of birthday presents for friends and watched TV.
In the afternoon my Dad took me to see my GP again. I pretty much spilled out
everything that’s been happening with my mental health. I told her what
happened last Friday and that I just can’t keep dipping into these crises every
few days. We also discussed the fact that I and my family don’t agree with my
diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder and that it’s been disputed by
other professionals, who believe I actually have Bipolar. My Dad and I feel
that my old psychiatrist hasn’t taken it seriously and based her responses on
incorrect information about Bipolar (she said I couldn’t possibly have Bipolar
because I haven’t been arrested by the police!) My GP was fab – really
understanding and seemed to get what I was saying. She’s going to refer me to a
different psychiatrist for a second opinion. I popped into Waitrose next door
afterwards and picked up an Innocent Smoothie to
have as part of my afternoon snack.
I also opened this month’s Birchbox,
which is in collaboration with Millie Mackintosh. I absolutely love the design
of the box, and am excited to try some of the bits inside.
Tuesday was the hottest day of the year so far,
and boy was it hot! I was seriously melting! The heat hasn’t been great for my
POTS unfortunately, but I’ve tried to muddle through and keep as cool as
possible. I wanted to do some blog work in the morning, but my desktop computer
that I use for blogging is in my attic bedroom, which is a sauna in this
weather. So I went downstairs, dozed for a bit and then wrote a couple of
letters to my penpals (including this adorable cat card). In the afternoon my
Mum and I went round to see my friend Katy from Katy Jane Rose Beauty. While my
Mum had her nails done I replied to a few messages on my laptop, then I had my
eyebrows done, followed by a lovely relaxing facial. We popped into Waitrose on
our way home and then I finished off my letters.
This month’s My Little Box was coconut themed, which I’m very happy about, as I love coconuts!
With it being ridiculously hot and humid, poor
Freddie was really struggling. But he seemed to find a comfy position stretched
out on the sofa!
Wednesday was another hot day, but a tiny bit
cooler than Tuesday. In the morning my Mum, Dad, sister and I went to B&Q.
They pushed me around to look at light fittings. We then went over to Pets at
Home to get the dogs a couple of beds for the lounge, and I bought Jaffa a new
little toy to play with. I was pretty exhausted by the time we got home, so I
crashed out on the sofa and rested for a while. I spent the afternoon watching
YouTube videos and writing penpal letters. In the evening we had my brother and
his fiancĂ©’s (Richard and Lisa’s) wedding rehearsal, and then all went to the
pub for dinner, which was nice. Unfortunately I felt really ill afterwards and
had another mental health dip.
I gave Jaffa his new toy, and to begin with he
seemed far from interested! But I popped my head round the door a bit later and
found him playing with it, so I think he was just trying to play it cool!
On Thursday morning my Mum, Dad and sister
(Bekkah) drove me over to Basingstoke to my friend Charlie’s house. They headed
into Basingstoke to do some shopping so I could spend a few hours with Charlie
and her two little ones, Izzi and Joe. We spent a while chatting while Izzi and
Joe played and watched Big Hero 6. Charlie then made us all some lunch, with
the help of chef Izzi! After lunch we sat out in the garden watching Izzi and
Joe playing. Joe drew a cute picture of me with chalk; they did some hula
hooping and played swing ball. We all enjoyed an ice-lolly, as it was still
pretty warm. A Change for Life letter came through the door, and spookily it
had a game on it called Charlie and Jenny’s Hide and Seek! My Dad and the
others then picked me up and we all came home. I spent the rest of the
afternoon just chilling out.
I hadn’t really planned on doing much on
Friday, but my Mum offered to take me into town to do a bit of shopping. How
could I refuse?! So we went into Camberley for a little while. I picked up this
beautiful skirt from Quiz and then had a look in Primark but couldn’t really find anything I liked apart
from a hat, which was reduced to £2! I think I’ll have to go back to Primark in
a few weeks when they will hopefully have more of their new stock in. We popped
into Next on our way home so my Mum could pick up a present for someone. I
spent the afternoon resting on the sofa, watching some programmes I had on
record and catching up on blog e-mails. The evening wasn’t too great
unfortunately, as my mental health took a bit of a dip.
Yesterday morning I woke up fairly late – I seem
to be so tired at the moment. I spent the morning just pottering around and not
doing an awful lot really. At lunchtime we went over to my sister-in-law’s
parents’ house for her Dad’s 50th birthday BBQ. We sat out in the
sunshine and chatted for a few hours before we had to come home, as my Dad was
going out in the evening. I rested on the sofa trying to cool down a bit, as I’d
got a bit hot sitting out in the sun. I also binge-watched some YouTube videos
and wrote some penpal letters.
I bought these beautiful sunflowers and stocks
this week, and they’re looking lovely. Sunflowers always make me smile and
stocks smell so dreamy.
If you haven’t read my blog before, I just
wanted to let you know that I have a second blog, which mainly focuses on my
health in more depth than I talk about it here. It’s largely for friends and
family to follow and keep up with what’s going on, but if it’s something you
would be interested in reading as well, you are more than welcome to follow me
over there. It’s called ‘Zebra Crossing’ and you can find it by clicking here. I’m trying to keep it updated fairly regularly, so hopefully
there will be something there for you to read!
You can also check out my YouTube channel here, where I have recently uploaded a few new videos (and hope to
continue doing!)
I’m also trying to post on Snapchat a bit more,
so if you fancy following me, my username is Jennycole44.
What have you been up to this week? I always
enjoy hearing about your news and adventures!
Hey Jenny, I'm so glad your GP took your comments seriously and you'll be referred to a different psychiatrist - you definitely have to trust your instincts when you don't agree with what a 'professional' is saying - so good for you for speaking up. Man it really was crazy hot this week wasnt it! I'm sorry to hear things have been difficult for you and your POTS - I'm glad you've been taking things easy. I often find my mental health goes through phases of being good or bad, I'm sorry yours has been dipping. Sending you lots of positivity, as always, and like you say, just take each day as it comes. You are extremely strong, don't forget that <3 xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you Katie - I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this new psychiatrist will really listen and take my concerns seriously. I totally agree about trusting your instincts. They might be professionals, but we live in our bodies 24/7 and have more understanding of what things feel like. Yeah I'm glad it's started to cool down a bit now! Thank you lovely xx
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