This week, I’ve been loving…
Nail varnish
Unfortunately, at the
moment, my body and I are not really friends. I’m still feeling quite unwell
and am yet again baffling the doctors. Over the last week I’ve found it pretty
difficult to do anything particularly nice for myself because I either haven’t
had the energy, or just haven’t felt up to it. On Monday though I received a
lovely parcel in the post from one of my friends, which really made me smile.
It contained the cutest card with a piglet sporting red wellies and three Barry
M nail varnishes from the Aquarium collection. I’ve wanted to try them for
ages, so to receive three of them was pretty amazing! Painting my nails is one
of the only things I can do at the moment that makes me feel slightly girly and
pampered, so it was lovely to receive some new colours to try.
Hugs
I’ve always loved hugs.
Some people aren’t that into hugging, and that’s fine, but for me I can’t think
of anything I like more than a good hug with someone. Perhaps it nurtures my
inner child, but I just find that wrapping your arms around family or friends
can make you feel safe and wanted. One of the medications I was put on last
week was making me feel extremely anxious and tearful. Thankfully I’m now not
taking it and am trying something different, but while I was on it, all I
seemed to need was hugs from my Mum. No matter how poorly or scared I felt, a
hug from my Mum made it all go away, just for those few minutes. I think we
should all do a bit more hugging in life – how awesome would life be with a few
extra hugs?!
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| Picture from Weheartit |
Time out
Up until recently I’ve
always been quite a fan of social media. It’s allowed me to keep in touch with
friends old and new, share my photos and thoughts on life and just generally
helped me feel part of the outside world. Over the past month or so though,
while my health has been deteriorating, I’ve struggled more and more with sites
like Facebook and Instagram. I’ve pinned this down to a couple of reasons.
Firstly, it can be incredibly difficult seeing other people living a life that
you are desperate to live, but can’t because you’re not well enough. Sometimes
it can seem like everyone is getting married, having babies and getting
promotions. Of course, I’m happy for them, but it can get to the point where
you just can’t cope with hearing any more when you’re stuck at home the
majority of the time, needing relatives to care for you. Secondly, and probably
most importantly, I found that I was making my health worse by trying to keep
up with the outside world and doing things for other people. I feel awful for
doing it, but at the moment I simply do not have the energy to keep trying to
do things for other people, often with very little support. It goes completely
against who I am as a person, but right now, I need to be selfish. Other people
on Facebook are like celebrities – they have these lives that I can only dream
of; working, studying and socialising. I need to concentrate on just getting
through each day while the doctors do their job. It does worry me that people
might forget about me or that I might lose more friends, but to be honest I don’t
have a choice, so what will be will be.
What has grabbed your attention this
week? I love hearing about people’s new discoveries and you may end up sharing
something that makes it onto my list next week!
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