In my life this week…
Advent calendar
So this week saw the start
of another month, but more importantly it saw the start of advent, which can
only mean one thing…Christmas is coming!! This year I decided I was going to
make my own advent calendar because I’m finding some days I just don’t feel
well enough to eat chocolate and I wanted to do something that would suit me a
bit better. So, I went on eBay and managed to find myself a plain wooden advent
calendar, which I quickly ordered. Once it had arrived I gave it a lick of
paint, put some handles on the doors, added a star, numbers and copious amounts
of glitter and this was the finished result. My Mum then very kindly said that
she was happy to fill it for me so that I had surprises, rather than doing it
myself, so obviously I wasn’t going to turn her down! I’m really happy with the
finished product and it’s something I will be able to use year after year now.
So far this week I’ve had chocolate on a couple of days, a Yankee candle, some
lip balm and some glittery nail varnish, and I’m excited to see what is still
to come!
Gran’s Birthday
On Friday my Gran (who
lives with us) turned 91, which I think is pretty darn amazing. Unfortunately
she has the end stages of dementia, so is really not too well at all, but we
tried to make it as special as possible for her. I bought her a beautiful
arrangement of flowers, which resulted in a beaming smile on her part. Then
today we had some family over for lunch and birthday cake and amazingly my Gran
was really alert and knew exactly what was going on, which was such a blessing.
We got some lovely photos of her with her family and I’m planning on making
them into a book for her for Christmas, as she does love to look at photos.
Asking for help
Overall, this week has been
pretty awful if I’m honest. I’m really struggling mentally at the moment and
recently asked to be referred to our local eating disorder service for some
help with coping with my eating disorder. I went to see them on Monday and
basically they are refusing to help me. To say I was devastated would be an
understatement. If I’m honest I was ready to drive my car into a tree, and I
have no idea how I managed to get myself safely home. I was quite frankly
disgusted with the way they spoke to me and subjected me to being weighed,
knowing they weren’t going to offer me any support. Their reasons for not
helping me are because they said they’ve already helped me once and that I don’t
fit their criteria (basically I’m not underweight enough). I just find it
ridiculous that someone needs to get to a point where they have compromised
their physical health to such an extent that their life is in danger before
they will be given help for a MENTAL illness. So, I’m at a complete loss about
what to do now. I’m still struggling and I’ve now been told I won’t be getting
any support, so I’ve just got to continue to struggle on my own. There’s only
so much I can do on my own and it scares me that I could potentially lose my
life because I don’t fit a certain criteria. You only have to look to the news
to see how much the mental health services in this country are failing
vulnerable people, but I just wonder how many people have to die before
something will be done.
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| Image from Weheartit |
What has grabbed your attention this
week? I love hearing about people’s new discoveries and you may end up sharing
something that makes it onto my list next week!
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