In my life this week…
Eating Disorder assessment
I’ve been really struggling
with my eating disorder recently. I was discharged by the eating disorder
service back in January, when they told me my case was too complex for them to
help any further. It was a massive blow and I still feel very angry that they
can do that to someone who is still struggling. This week I went back to see
them, to be reassessed for further help. Unfortunately it wasn’t a particularly
positive appointment. I explained where I’m at, and the fact that I am trying
so damn hard to maintain my weight. But, because I’m not underweight,
apparently I’m not a priority any more and they said they’ve helped me more
than enough. They said again about how complex I am and that they don’t know
what else to do for me. I’ve got to go back next month to hear their final
decision, but to be honest I feel like they’ve already given up on me. It seems
so wrong that you have to be seriously physically unwell to get any help, when
they’re meant to be a mental health
service. Surely it’s harder to help someone when they get that ill? Wouldn’t it
make more sense to help someone before they decline so much? You wouldn’t tell
someone with cancer that they have to become more unwell before they can get
treatment, so why is it OK to say it to someone with a mental health problem?
The Royal London appointment
This week has been one of
the most stressful weeks I’ve had in quite a while. As well as my eating
disorder assessment, and an exam at college, on Thursday my Dad took me up to
The Royal London Hospital to see a gastroenterology professor who specialises
in Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome. I spent over two hours in my meeting with them, and
thankfully it was a much more helpful appointment than the previous day. I
initially saw a registrar, who was absolutely lovely and really put me at ease.
The professor then joined us, and my diagnosis of Ehlers-Danlos Type 3 was
confirmed. They also told me that one of the complications of this illness is
that it has affected my digestive system, meaning it’s not working as well as
it should be. I’ve got an overgrowth of bacteria in my small bowel, so have
been put on strong antibiotics to try and kill as much of that as possible. I
then need to take probiotics until I next go back and see them (within the next
six months) when we will then discuss further, more invasive, tests and also
trying a medication to try and speed up my digestive system a bit. After this I
spoke to two specialist nurses, who were so lovely and really helped me get my
head around things a bit. I’ve now got to spend some time coming to terms with
this diagnosis and the possibility that my symptoms are likely to deteriorate
as I get older. But it’s so good to finally have a concrete diagnosis and have
a tram of people wanting to help me.
Girly day
After such a stressful week
I was in much need of some girly time, and thankfully I had a girly day planned
on Saturday with my friend, Lilli. We decided we’d start off with a bit of
shopping, so Lilli kindly pushed me in my wheelchair around our local shopping
centre, and we started to get into the Christmas spirit seeing all the lovely
window displays. I treated myself to a few things, which always makes me feel
better and we stopped off for a nice drink, which was lovely. After driving
home in the pouring rain, we chilled out in front of a movie with a warm cup of
tea and a cookie, before driving down to our local pub to watch some fireworks.
Thankfully the rain eased off for the display, and we stood there shivering
while we enjoyed watching all the colours in the sky. To finish off the day, we
enjoyed hot dogs and toasted marshmallows – definitely a much needed chill out
day.
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What has grabbed your attention this
week? I love hearing about people’s new discoveries and you may end up sharing
something that makes it onto my list next week!
Gosh, that first bit about not getting any help is absolutely disgusting! No one should be refused like that, and you're right, prevention is so much better than being that underweight. I keep a recovery eating disorder/life blog - maybe some of my experiences could help you? If I can help you at all, let me know!
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Thank you Sam I will go and check out your blog now - I appreciate your support xx
DeleteDid you see Professor Aziz? I have EDS too (and it has caused me lots of complications including gastroparesis). I remember the relief I felt when I finally found out what was wrong after years of being extremely ill and constantly deteriorating. There's lots of great support groups and places with helpful information (I'm sure you've found them for yourself but if you ever need some links just shout!). I hope you're doing as well as possible!
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Hi Naomi - yep I saw Professor Aziz and like you said it was such a relief to finally have someone who understands the complications of EDS and could come up with some sort of plan! I'm glad you found help with him as well. If you could share your links that would be great thank you! I've just joined the EDS UK charity support group thingy, but am always looking for other avenues of support :) xx
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